After a few hard, long, sad weeks I am back. Life does go on and it's time I do it

I lost a very close friend to cancer last week, and felt terribly alone and lonely. No one to call in the middle of the night which is what she and I did for a long time. It didn't matter that we woke one another up, we needed each other, so we would call. That part is over and she is wherever she is, now free from pain and dancing again. We had a "gathering" memorial service for her on Saturday, and I played a few songs on the Dul for her.

So, on with life. Feel like I am starting over again.

Went to a Dulcimer workshop a few weeks ago, and guess what Vik is getting for Christmas. Yep, a new dulcimer. It's a bit different to the one I have in shape, but she likes it better than mine. It's a teardrop shape but has a wonderful tone. I wish she could have it now so as to learn how to play it with me, but it's easy so she will learn quickly.

As to my personal life, this has been interesting. As I have said before, I really do not want another romantic interest, but several have talked me in to signing up for free dating sites LOL. What a hoot this is................So, yes, I did do it, only to see what the hell is out there. Still not interested but, had a very strange encounter, almost. This one particular site, you sign in with zip code only, no name, and they don't have your actual email. It is all very private.

Anyway, the other morning, I had an announcement, so opened it. and was shocked to see a picture and name of a man I know. He had bought our jeep after DH had passed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!But that isn't all. He is the father of my handyman, and grandfather of the boys that do my yard work. He has no idea who I am. His wife passed 6 months before DH, and really is a very nice man. BUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am not interested................NO NO NO NO! I must admit there is one I heard from that sounds interesting, but he's 7 years younger. Not sure about that. Altho, my wonderful step-father was 10 or more years younger than my mother and they had a great life.

Last week, I was able to finally contact some first cousins that I haven't seen in many years, and pursuing the Indian Heritage. Yes, we are a small part Lakota, Sioux. A G G G grandmother was a schoolteacher and married a Lakota, in Nebraska. I haven't found out how we ended up in Michigan yet. But I do know she rode her horse side saddle all the way to MO. and somehow ancestors ended up in Mi. Time will be interesting.

I haven't had much contact with Vik lately, she is always busy with things they have to take care of. And not having Internet where she lives, makes it harder for us. I do miss that girl!

Later.......................

Ms. J.